
It was around 1986, and he spoke with conviction, thick glasses and cool dreads. He danced to music as his voiceover explained his dancing was like an act of worship, though without using that word. It concluded with him stating “Some sing, some pray, I dance.” And then the Levi’s logo faded up as the picture faded to black.
I of course wasn’t moved to go buy a pair of Levi’s, even though almost 25 years later I still remember the commercial (and somehow still think of Levi’s as the best jeans). But of the idea that dancing was like a prayer, an act of devotion, I remember being intrigued but never really experiencing that in my own life.
I think of my frustration through my own waywardness and hearing Rich Mullins sing a song and wondering if it was possible to know God like that, to really enjoy that incredible blend of joyful creativity in response to the Creator who wasn’t the frowning and grey stoic I had come to fear He was. I had my doubts.
But as I have started to explore making art and writing I have come to enjoy art as devotion. Making art as a response to God, making art to work through His moving in my life and my faltering movements towards Him. And in it, looking to bless others, though I am not sure how much that happens.
In making pieces, at least for now, the ideas are coming from my own interactions and reflections on scripture, the struggles in my own life and how I see God resolving issues, though never along my preconceived path. The processes often involve the meditating and ruminating on some concept, theme or portion of scripture that seems pertinent.
I find myself echoing statements I have heard artists make about being surprised by what they have created, or how the materials led them in a direction they hadn’t planned. I have experienced that and was amazed at how you can start with an idea, a vision and by working at something, a solution or direction presents itself because of the materials or process used. And I have seen how I have already grown in my projects, where before I was too literal, or forcing something, more concerned with “being an artist” than making art.
But just as important as how the content develops, is how I find myself going about the projects, mindful of patience and how I am exploring and not attempting perfection. Learning to not be bound by the mental image in my head and literally trying to reproduce it in one attempt. No longer rushing through to finish, but looking to enjoy the development of a concept, and working on it as well.
Outside of the projects, I am seeking to live in balance, to not forgo my duties around the house or to not leave off interacting with and enjoying my wife’s company.
So I find that art making is a exercise were I learn balance, learn patience, interact with and reflect on God’s word and look for His leading and respond to Him with my humble little creative acts, as I look for His handiwork in my life and try to be teachable.
This piece, “84”, is my first attempt at collage, assemblage and art making. I am not fond of it really, but it was the beginning and if nothing else it is a mile marker on my journey. It is a pictorial representation of psalm 84, one of my favorite psalms. I didn’t really explore any of the ideas or concepts that I find so salient in the psalm nor why, so it is static, but there it is.